June 27th is a day I would rather not repeat that often (or ever)! It started out the same as any other day - Micah up and ready to eat. Then as we went to put him down for his nap, and consequently make our way to church, the little guy decided he didn't want to go to sleep. Not then, not an hour later, nor another hour later, or another hour later...you get my point. And in the midst of not wanting to sleep, he also decided he was crabby and fussy, crying for the majority of the 6 hours he was awake. So 2 feedings later and hours in the glider, Christian and I taking turns trying, I finally got him to sleep in my arms. And that's where he stayed for 2 1/2 hours. I was not moving, not taking chances, and just wanted to get my baby his much needed rest.
Oh, and I also should add that in the process of working with Micah, I noticed our base boards coming off the wall in our kitchen next to the fridge. On Friday I had pulled the fridge out of its location to get something that had dropped behind it, and loosened up the line that connects from the wall to our ice maker and it began leaking. I thought I had tightened the screw, therefore stopping the leak, but two days later saw that was clearly not the case. So our base boards are coming off the kitchen wall and the bathroom wall that connects to it, there is water seeping out from our floor and you can see a leak in the garage that's about 3cm x 3cm. Awesome.
While Christian works on figuring out the next steps here, I continue to work on getting Micah to calm down for the day as well as work on the tears that just seem to be constantly in my eyes or coming out of them for most of the afternoon. As we decided to head out for the church picnic to get some much needed social time, Micah again started to fuss and would not go to sleep. There went that idea - back to the glider for more rocking. It was a quicker process this time around and I actually got him to sleep in the bassinet for a little over 2 hours, while Daddy and I got some "us" time.
Going to bed that night, tears still falling for reasons I couldn't explain except that it was just one of those days, I am completely humbled as I think about the precious little boy who is sleeping in his crib (for the first time for the entire night - 4 weeks old!). As I look at how dependent he is on mommy and daddy for his every need, and how easy it is to ask why he isn't taking what we are giving to soothe him, I am reminded of something Christian said a week or two after Micah was born and he was soooo hungry but not willing to eat. Being a parent gives both of us a deeper understanding of how God loves his children. How He supplies all our needs if we are willing to accept them, and then we get frustrated and sad when something doesn't work out right. And there is God saying, I'm here! What you need is here, you just have to be willing to open your arms up and accept what I am giving you.
As I sit here today looking back at yesterday's events, I am also staring at a monitor of my son sleeping soundly in his crib for his third nap of the day, after an almost 4 hour nap this morning and amazed at what a difference a day makes. Thank you God for the amazing little boy you have placed in our care. Please help us to raise him to be a man after your own heart. And, if we could not have too many days like yesterday, that wouldn't be so bad either... :)
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